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THE TABLE OF CONTENTS

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My Opening Statement

Hello :) I’ll begin by saying that this will be an acknowledgement essay, but not an apology essay. I’ll acknowledge many things, but apologize for very few. Because the central fact in all of this is that my case is based on the intentional distortion of ordinary truths, and the extreme magnification of horrible lies — all to fuel an orchestrated mass of hate in such excess, that no person should ever have to experience in their lifetime.

The so-called evidence of my case is based on two parts: firstly, things that I have said and shared being purposefully misconstrued beyond all reasonable degrees in order to corrupt my image — and secondly,  the malignant, intentionally made-up lies being largely spread about me, to vilify my personhood as a whole.

In this video I will dispute all of the allegations which are false, and shed light on those that hold some truth. I’ll bring attention to the many things which I’m expected to apologize for, but that I will not — but also the few for which I will. To do this, I’ll be quoting and deconstructing this document as well as parts of this video so that I can acknowledge all of their fallacies and gaps, as well as their partial or whole truths — point by point, claim by claim. This video will be divided into ten parts.

If you are here for the truth, then let’s begin. If you’re only here having already made up your mind that I am a problematic creator and an irredeemably bad person, without you even needing the truth itself — you are still welcome to try and listen as well, but now with the chance provided, to think critically — not for me, and not against them — but for yourself. So, because the truth is mine and mine alone, I’m going to take control of the narrative now okay? Okay :)

PART 0 - The Opening Claims

Some of the following posts are from her Facebook account which has already been confirmed to be her. (1) The account was shortly locked and (2) had the profile picture changed after people began criticising the content on there. I’d also like to add in her video addressing the controversy, in which she asks for constructive criticism, (3) she has been actively deleting and blocking comments doing what she asked, (4) even in a respectful manner. The video will be linked at the end of this doc.

To begin, all four claims made in the document’s opening paragraph alone are false.

1. Firstly, Of all 14,000 comments made under my last video on Tiktok, there was not a single comment made in a respectful manner. I have seen this, my manager has seen this, and most notably, you all have seen this, the majority of you having joyfully participated in it.
2. Secondly, I have not been actively deleting comments nor have or will I ever. In the several days of my leave from Tiktok, I couldn’t possibly have done that. For all of those days, I was hospitalized into the psych ward after an attempt, and so was left without a phone, and after some days discharged, going on to live my life trying to compose myself beneath moment-by-moment anxiety attacks, and day-by-day harassment. I allowed for all comments to exist and thrive as they were written, just about all of which were bullying and hate speech. That said, my comment filtering was set to strict under all three categories, to prevent the singularly most hateful comments from passing through, because as I said in the video, I would read every single comment made constructively, but not those purely out of hate that serve no productive purpose whatsoever.
3. Thirdly, I locked my Facebook not because i was in fear of being “exposed” even more – but because each day for months now, people were very actively saving my videos, photos, and words posted from there, so that they could (1) blatantly impersonate me across platforms, (2) dig for extremely personal information, like my name, or the names of my family, my friends, where we live — and most apparently, (3) incriminate me by taking my posts out of their very ordinary contexts, to contort and make them as scandalous as conceivably possible.